Jan 3, 2018 12:08 AM
"Fragile" is an adjective that not many of us like to use to describe ourselves. We like to think of ourselves a strong and durable and we are! We have withstood the pressures and injuries in life to be here today so of course we are strong and durable! But aren't we also delicate at times and meant to be handled with tenderness even when we are strong and durable? What if you were only durable and as a result, you were only handled with carelessness? I mean, it's fine! You won't break! What would it be like to honor your fragility and invite the opportunity to be handled with tenderness?
Jan 2, 2018 11:54 PM
Most of the time the new year brings new hope. Can you enjoy that experience while also honoring some of the disappointments and grief in 2017?
Oct 25, 2017 7:39 AM
There are many articles on the internet with the heading that Jim Carrey has Bipolar Disorder. When I read them, they only point out his depression but I have not read about any mania which is THE factor that makes a diagnosis for Bipolar Disorder instead of depression. All that being said, if he does have Bipolar Disorder, he has found an amazing way to channel that energy. I tell my clients with the diagnosis to protect themselves and their loved ones while in a manic episode by giving the car keys and credit cards to someone they trust, enlist loved ones to help stay away from drugs and alcohol, maintain their therapy and psychiatry appts, remember that they can't fly even if mania tries to convince them otherwise, and get the help of their psychiatrist for sleep. When that is all in place, use the mania as a tool to have safe fun and accomplish great things!!! One reason why the depression that follows the mania is so bad is because of the guilt about the dangerous, expensive, and hurtful things the person does while manic. By preplanning for safety and using mania as a tool to accomplish great things, you give yourself the opportunity to have a more mild case of depression following mania. If Jim Carrey does have bipolar disorder, this may be how he creates the amazing art in this video. I've read that he is completely off meds now and relies on his faith and his art that includes his comedy to help him cope. I am always truly amazed at people's abilities despite their inner demons. Sometimes IN spite of them. I wish more people knew just how strong and courageous they really are!!!!
Oct 21, 2017 5:16 PM
Did you ever insist that you were not jealous even though you did feel jealous? Jealousy gets a bad rap but it has its utility in relationships! Watch to see how.
Oct 8, 2017 1:56 PM
In this video, I briefly share how you can eliminate the thoughts in your head that contribute to confusion in your life. Be well.
Oct 4, 2017 3:14 PM
Two common immediate reactions following a tragedy are feeling as if a prior loss or traumatic experience is happening again and re-evaluation of priorities. While the first immediate reaction is generally very emotionally and sometimes even physically painful, the second reaction can be helpful. It is so easy to get lost in the overwhelm of the current crisis and despair has a way of taking over if we are not intentionally fending it off. It is during the immediate aftermath of tragedy when we should find ways to be self-caring, determine our own values, and identify at least one behavior we can do now that align with our values. In doing so, we allow ourselves to continue to heal our older wounds and begin to heal the newest wounds. So, how can you be self-caring right now? What do you promise yourself to do today to take care of you? What do you value TODAY and HOW COME? Is it because you’ve been told you should value it while wondering if you truly do? Is it because you had a life experience that either instilled or reinforced that value? Is it because it’s just been a habit to value it; something you’ve always done without really giving it much thought? Can you imagine cleaning the closet out? Can you dump all the values, opinions, shoulds, shouldn’ts into a pile and sort through them, deciding what you want to toss, what you want to give back to its rightful owner, and what you want to hold onto and place neatly back in the closet? After you’ve done that, can you take it one step forward and do one thing today that aligns with the values that you have decided are yours to keep?
Sep 29, 2017 3:21 PM
I tell clients to honor their grief and that confuses them.
“Why should I honor my anger, hurt, and my sadness? I want it to go away! I want to stop hurting!”
When you honor your grief, you are honoring the importance of your lost loved one. You are saying, “You matter! Our relationship matters! That you existed matters! That you are physically gone from my life matters!”
Your tears, sobs, and even your laughs in the context of your grief are honorable.
Sep 24, 2017 3:05 PM
Many clients and even therapists believe that if something is therapeutic, it means it feels good. The truth is that sometimes it feels good and other times, it feels shitty. If something is therapeutic, it means that it aids in healing and sometimes that hurts! Have you ever heard of a bone needing to be “rebroken” so it can heal properly? Have you ever had stitches or surgery? Healing fucking hurts!!!
A lot of people think that their loved ones in therapy with me are spending an hour and good money to be complimented, to be told about how right they are and how wrong their loved ones are, or to talk to me while I sit passively nodding my head with smiles and “mm hmm’s.”
Here is a reality check for you. If your loved one is in therapy with me, they have one of the most confrontational and challenging therapists I know. It is true that my clients feel safe in their therapy. Feeling safe is my ultimate concern for my clients. I tell my clients often that while they should always feel safe, they will often feel uncomfortable. I also tell them that if we work together long enough and if they and I are doing our jobs right, I will probably piss them off. My clients hear me say things like,
- What do you need today?
- Your presence matters. Your absence matters. What you do matters. What you say matters. You matter.
- What do you need right now?
- I’m feeling protective of you right now.
- What do you need from me?
- When you allow yourself to show your hurt in here, you help me to understand how hurt you are.
- What do you need? (Are you noticing a pattern here?)
- I hate that you are hurting so much.
- I am pissed that that happened to you.
- Even if you smile or laugh in here, I promise I won’t forget how much you are suffering.
- What is preventing you from getting your needs met?
- Trust in your process, be patient with your timeline, be kind to yourself.
- Can you work to get your needs met in here?
My clients also hear me say things like,
- What gives you the right to tell other people how to feel?
- You don’t get to decide how _____ does life.
- It is none of your business what they are saying about you.
- How do you expect to get your needs met when you haven’t made them clear to anyone?
- ______ is not responsible for your emotions; you are.
- ______ is entitled to his experiences even if you don’t agree with or understand them.
- I am beginning to resent your frequent tardiness to your sessions.
- What are you avoiding?
- What are you doing right now?
- How does what you are saying have anything to do with what I just asked you?
- Talk to me about your anger with me right now.
Despite what stigma has taught society, THERAPY IS NOT FOR THE WEAK! My clients are so strong and brave! When I was leaving the clinic and had my clients meet their new therapists, what I heard my clients say the most to their new therapists were things like, "I need you to call me out on my shit like Nicki does," "Don't let me stay comfortable," "Push me out of my comfort zone like Nicki does." Therapy with me is rough at times. It is often uncomfortable, confrontational, challenging, brutally honest, and incredibly therapeutic.
May 13, 2017 12:13 PM
People often wonder how I, as a therapist, manage my own feelings that result from therapy sessions with my clients.
May 13, 2017 12:09 PM
When we misuse words, we are less understood and can feel worse about our situations. In this video, I'm giving attention to the use of the word "literally" and how it can literally make is feel worse.
May 13, 2017 12:02 PM